jupitertears87

I don't know what exactly is new since my last entry but I do know that "Working for Myself" is now what I do rather than an idea that I am striving for. Taking this whole freelancing thing by the horns. Lets see how it all plays out. Meeting today with a client. Should be fun. Happy to be able to take this risk. I just need to get accustomed to my own rhythm.

Its been three years since my graduation date. I find myself falling out of love with my job, and yet I can not deny that I still love art, media, and design.... not to mention social networking as well. Designing websites is great, but my atmosphere plays such a big role in the whole scheme of things. Its time for a change of atmosphere. I am so looking forward to change. But i know that part of me is very nervous for it. I haven't been on this in so long, but it had less to do with the fact that I hadn't created anything in a while, and more to do with the fact that I was so drained. Too drained to want to work on anything. Oddly enough I found I bit of inspiration in some of the most unlikely places. Time to set some new goals.... good night now. Work in the AM.

I am finding it more difficult to take time to work for myself now having left college. The days seem shorter, though the hours are exactly the same. I usually only see daylight when i wake and am heading to work, and on my lunch break. Designing all day is great but doing it with no windows sucks sometimes. Being in a place 9 hours a day, mouse to hand, fingers to keys. Then coming back home and trying to spend a few more hours on my own computer.... sometimes it's draining. Last week I bypassed that draining feeling by fueling myself with bacon, cheesy eggs, and a five hour energy. It was good. I took an hour to relax and chow down on the meal. Cracked open the little container and knocked back half of the bottle's contents. After some research I found myself putting together a rather concise piece of work (the design interface for my new website). I will share it once it is complete. But I realize now that working for myself is going to be quite a bit more difficult than before. My circumstances are different. They aren't more difficult. But they are more demanding. So I am going to have to demand more of myself in the meantime, until I begin working in a place that doesn't drain me all the day long. When I finally get to work in the sunshine again..... lol

Hello DA!

Its has been very long since my last deviation. I have missed you so. I sure hope the feeling is mutual. I apologize for my disappearance, i have been known to ghost from time to time. But as my dear friend Hancock said: "You deserve better from me. I can be better. I will be better."

Much love to all my DA followers. New deviations to come! I pinky promise!

18 days left to go. I have graduated. I am a web designer intern about to go full time. I just handed in the last stupid assignment my college obligated me to hand in although I have my diploma. I just spent a weekend in Virginia. Tomorrow I am going to walk for Ovarian Cancer. I finally uploaded something to Deviant Art which makes life feel a little more complete. Time to go back to work Pandora Radio rox my sox!!